random thoughts

1. Yes, I’m aware that i totally used God’s (and his relation’s) name in vein about 46 times in the post “insane.” you know what? I’m a little peeved with the guy right now (see: let’s recap why my life sucks). plus, i NEED to take out my frustrations some-freaking-where and im fully aware that God will forgive me, whereas other people might not be so quick to get over it.

2.the dr. at the emergency room who i see every month or so (see: gall stones) is named hobnob (or something like that). and it’s funny. and even when i feel death coming, i still laugh when i see his name on the white marker board in the er room.

ha.

hob-nob.

i crack myself up.

3. im told to avoid dairy at least until i get my gall bladder out. still trying to figure out why exactly God hates me.

4. when i get really stressed out, my contacts get filmy for some reason, and as you may have read, i’ve been d*mn stressed out lately. as a result i now think everywhere is foggy. car, office, bathtub, etc.

5. when my sister and i drove into a ditch, the tow truck driver charged me $30 cash, but i think my roadside assistance should have covered it the whole thing. im pretty sure i got scammed.

6. i still really, really want a laptop, but recent crazy life-events have led me to drastically reduce my laptop savings fund. however, if anyone wants to buy me a lap top, i’d totally accept.

7. plans for my saturday include: sleeping, watching reailty tv, not eating dairy, and sleeping.

8. i no longer back-link to posts because my hosting service (look at me being all cool and using phrases such as “hosting services”) (look at me being all lame by using “such as” and not “like” — that’s the crazy journalist in me) takes FOREVER to do oh, anything. someday, when im rich and awesome and have a new laptop and an awesomer (apparently my crazy journalist side doesn’t mind awesomer though) hosting service i will back-link again.

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let’s recap why my life sucks

last week, i had to deal with my family’s domestic violence situation. then my sister and i drove into a ditch in the middle of 72 corn fields and had to get towed out, then i had to call dcfs, then my mom stopped talking to me. then, last night (thursday) i had another gall stone attack, felt like i was going to die, drove myself to the emergency room during a blizzard, was given drugs that made it illegal for me to drive and then proceeded to be unable to find anyone in a 20 mile radius who’d ANSWER THEIR PHONE IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT WHEN IT’S MOST LIKELY AN EMERGENCY! to pick me up from the hospital, got a ride home at 3:30 a.m. from a cab driver who smoked and tried to kill me while driving on awful snow-filled roads and now have to work until 11 p.m.

i used to say, it could be worse, i could be blago. but seriously, that man brought on his own d*mn problems. i think i’d rather be him than me at this point.

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insane

Friday night I was in the mood for some boston market and about to pay for my all-sides meal when I got the call.

my grandma was on the other end, and said ‘didn’t you hear? (mom’s boyfriend) went after your mom with an ax after catching her with another guy and nobody has heard from you mom today. and he slit all your mom’s tires.’

i thought the worst. death crossed my mind. i couldn’t even think of a response. i got sick to my stomach and was too shocked to even cry.

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