ok, so maybe giving up dairy. and cheese. and eggs. AND pop in the same week was just setting myself up to fail. and today, at lunch, with my vegan white rice and my vegan chik’n and my vegan broccoli i just couldn’t stomach the thought of water to drink. so, i gave in. i had a pop. DON’T WORRY!! I’m still a vegan. there’s no animal products in pepsi. im just trying to give it up as part of my new “healthy lifestyle.”

The weird thing was though, i didn’t really like the pop. I mean, YES, it was sweet. but it felt dirty when i drank it. like sugar gasoline. and i didn’t even finish it. instead i had some tea. (which, honestly wasn’t that good either). and i eventually finished off my mid-day meal with a vegan oreo and some reliable water.  

I kind of wish there was a support group for new vegans (or old vegans). except, i wish that if there were a support group, it was full of non-stereotypical vegans. because i don’t really like hippies. and i think those are the stereotypical vegans. im looking for NORMAL people who just HAPPEN to not want to eat meat. or dairy. or eggs. or cheese. or anything umm, good. wait. those people wouldn’t be normal. hmmm. what to do. what to do.

for those marking the days, this my my fourth as a vegan. and im just going to say it — im hungry. pretty much all. the. time. when i wake up — hungry. go to sleep — hungry. even if i eat — im still hungry. and when im full — im hungry. because vegan food just doesn’t stick my lungs like animal fat. on the plus side, it doesn’t seem to be sticking to my belly either. it hasn’t even been a week sans animal products and i already have gone down a notch in my belt — true story. and it’s like a comfortable notch down. like no sucking in or anything. and if i suck in a little, i can really go down TWO notches. and it’s hasn’t even been a week! so that’s a good sign. 

now im going to make myself some vegan dinner. (soy hot dog, whole wheat bun, baked “fries” and some broccoli) and i’ll probably wash it down with some water. wish me luck.