Don’t get me wrong, Jesus’ opinion is important to me and all, but when it comes to decisions regarding my passion i typically turn to my younger, idealistic self and ask “what would 2002-crystal do.” (note: im not stupid, i pray about it too.) 

right now, my big passion conundrum is that im thinking of leaving my passion behind. and while my 24-year-old self says “doooo it,” my 18-year-old self screams “wtf?!”

but im beginning to see my passion in a new light — an older, more realistic light. and i don’t think i like this view. i don’t think im all that passionate about it any more.

don’t get me wrong, im not going to leave it behind tomorrow or anything crazy. im just saying that for the first time since i discovered what a passion could be, i have no motivation to pursue this any more.   

and im typically a fairly happy person, so im thinking i could be passionate about a lot of OTHER things.

i just have to get past those judgemental stares from my 18-year-old self and i’ll be good to go. (forward. without my current former passion).

sigh. life is hard.