missing, missing cheese

Here i am, about two/three months post-vegan and I’m wondering if I made a mistake going back to cheese pizza.

seeing as how I LOVE the stuff, I thought I was oh-so-obviously making the right decision to switch from being to vegan to being a plain old regular vegetarian last summer.

but I think I’ve gained a pretty solid 10 pounds. And I do not, under any circumstances, want to have time to work out. i don’t want to waste my precious sleep time on a treadmill. plus winter is coming so all my stupid work out options are indoor. and also, i do not want to waste ANY of my precious money on a stupid gym membership.

but then i remember that i LOVE dairy and i think that being vegan to control my weight would suck.

so what’s a girl to do?

The other problem is that when i was vegan I kind of lived on tofurky, veganmayo and tomato sandwiches. and as far as I can tell the closest store to my house that sells tofurky is about 45 minutes away. granted that’s close by chicagoland standards. but i just don’t want to drive that far every time in i have need a tofurky fix.

Also, back when I was a crazy vegan, everyone thought i was. well. crazy. they would always talk about what a fool i was for avoiding dairy. and that kind of thing can get under your skin after about 573(ish) people say to your face “you’re an idiot.”

sigh.

if only there was a magical pill i could take so I could always weigh ten pounds less that whatever I currently weigh at any given moment. then, and only then, would I be happy.

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don’t judge me (i’ll do that myself, thank you)

ok. ok. i ate some d*mn cheese today.

what? this doesn’t make me a bad person. (right?)

see, what happened was. well. im just SO tired.

seriously.

i even have proof from a doctor.

(and by “proof” i mean “no proof.” but whatever).

here’s the thing, im commuting like INSANE amounts and im not sleeping that much, and i basically leave for work at like 8:30 a.m. and then i don’t get home until 10 p.m. and then i fall onto the bed and sleep and wake up and go back to work. AND im just not eating very much. there’s no time. and i can’t realistically bring a breakfast, lunch, dinner and snack with me to work every day.

AND im getting so exhausted that when i drive at night all the lights blur to the point that i can’t see anything else. and my eye doctor told me (for $25) that i probably just need more sleep because my eyes are so fatigue that they can’t focus.

and i know im not tired JUST because im vegan (was vegan?), but it’s not helping.

and then today, i went to Whole Foods, which is supposed to be like a vegan utopia, and even THEIR salad bar had hardly anything for me to eat.

so i took some mac&cheese and officially decided to take a little break from veganism.

don’t worry, im still vegetarian. and i still want to eat mostly vegan food.

i just need to make sure im getting enough to eat on a regular basis. and i can’t do that as a vegan right now.

it is looking like i will be moving in with a friend closer to my job within the next month or so, so maybe I’ll pick it up again. or maybe not. im not sure.

but for the record, i totally made it 5 and a half months without dairy.

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