I should be asleep right now, seeing as how I have to wake up in 6.75 hours.
I used to be a 9-hours a night kinda girl. Alas, not so much now.
It’s the stress man.
And some other things.
Lucky for you though, I use this time to blog. So we’ve got that going for us.
Let’s see. Well first, thanks for all the wishes of support after my last post. It was much appreciated.
I do want to note that I know I write very honest things on here, and sometimes they come off as dark. I think most people freak out about life though. Actually, I KNOW they do. I’m great at making friends, and all my friends always tell me how freaked the F out they are.
I just write it down.
And then post it for everyone and their pumpkin to see.
I understand the consequences, and I’m cool with it. But like I said, thanks for the wishes of support.
Speaking of nothing, (as my dear blog-friend Krista would say) (speaking of Krista, that girl hasn’t posted in a hot minute) I’m pretty sure my roommate tricked me into a down comforter.
Being a vegetarian and all, I usually frown on such things. But when she offered me the best blanket eva in all the land (no doubt so we could keep heating costs down for a change) she assured me it was fake.
I’m here to tell you, I’ve had fake down – this is not that.
This is amazing.
This is envelop you with love wrapped in hugs and smiles while sprinkling fairy dust in your dreams good. In the interest of warmth though, my current plan is to continue pretending it’s fake.
(Don’t tell PETA).
Moving along, I had a fight with a guy last night.
Not really a fight. More a “this is never going to work is it.”
I know. I know. You’re thinking “Crystal? You were dating someone?! What?”
I just like to keep those things on the down low. You understand. Maybe it’s because I knew this particular thing could never work.
Irregardless, I feel like someone went inside my chest and lopped off a piece of my bleeding red heart.
Just took it. Just like that.
And now it’s gone, and my heart will be stronger because of it in the end.
But today sucked. Today I felt sad and lost and lopsided.
And of course it rained today. The kind of rain that lasts for hours and makes you cry when you get a second to yourself in the car.
But it’s 12:09 now.
Which means it’s been Friday for nearly 10 minutes and it’s time to start a fantabulous weekend slated to include old friends, pizza and a corn maze.
It’s time to start healing my heart.