Future self.

On a cold, snowy, craptastic day like today two years ago (ish) I wrote a letter to myself.

Wed., Jan. 2, 2008.

All pre-blog and brown hair and 50 extra pounds ago.

I told EmailCapsules.com (which either does not exist any more, or has turned into this) to e-mail it to me in three two years.

I just got it today, but I’m willing to overlook the four-days-late thing seeing as how I only paid zero dollars for the service and wouldn’t have even know it was late except that they told me when I sent it, and really, I guess there’s a chance I told them to send it in two years and four days.

I’ve edited out one sentence, which was about, umm, this one, umm, thing, because, um, well somethings are pri-vate. Gawd. But here it is in all it’s spelling mistakes and grammar errors glory. (UPDATE: Also, I actually said 2007 where I meant 2008 in the original. I was confused. It was a new year. I have changed it here though so I don’t look totally stupid).

Enjoy.

Well 2008 is starting out well. Can’t wait to see what it brings. I started 2006 in Iowa and then moved to south dakota, but i really do plan to stay in oshkosh for 18 months to two years.

… Also, if you are looking for a job, remember to look somewhere warm. Although you may think it’s not a big deal — you hate cold weather.

If you are thinking of selling out — either with work or with a guy you only kind of like — don’t do it. You’re better than that. Have faith not only in God, but also in yourself.

Also, if you have enough money to have bought a christmas tree you are doing very well — remember you didn’t have one for two year back in 2006 and 2007. Oh, and tell April I said hi — I really hope you are still friends with her.

love, past self

So, ya, I only stayed in Oshkosh for 8 months. And, I still live in a land where it snows everyday.

But, I totally had a Christmas tree this year.

I’m glad I (past self) think I (future/current self) am worth more than whatever it is I could be settling for. It’s good to read that.

I’m also glad I still have faith in God, and most days, myself.

And yes, I’m still friends with April.

Speaking of April, she recently made this thing called a vision board at her church, where you cut things out from magazines that represent what you’d like to have or be in the future. That way you can pray about it and stuff.

I liked the idea so much, that last week we made them in my youth group, and I tied it in to the New Year. (I’m clever).

Only a handful of high school girls showed up, and the project turned out to be A. a hit (I think) and B. a great excuse for us to talk about that one girl in that old seventeen magazine issue who dated a guy who was really a girl.

The sole boy, an (awesome) college guy who helps me, was, um, a little less excited, but willing to give it a go.

Mine is obviously on alarmingly pink poster board. Obviously.

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Starting with the top center, there’s a picture of a computer with my blog card pasted on the screen under a sign reading “Web site launch of the year” – a goal I didn’t even know I had Jan. 2,2008.

To the right, that’s a picture of a church because I want to explore that section of my talents as much as I can. The quote reads “One girl really can change the world.” I’m one girl.

Underneath that  is a stack of books, which were incredibly hard to find among our stack of make-up magazines. The nail polish and the butterflies were mostly just pretty. I want to be pretty.

On the top, well, that’s a picture of Hawaii because I want to go there or live there or live somewhere like it . If you look close, you’ll see a mini-Johnny Depp. I can’t have a vision board without Johnny Depp.

The large quote in the center is my favorite part.

“I have to believe in fairy tales. I have to believe in love.”

(If I told you Taylor Swift said that, would it be any less blissful?)

The whole thing is a little shout-out to my future self. A little nudge to the hope that three years from now I’ll be living somewhere south of Kentucky, changing the world one blog post and prayer at a time.

I’d like that.

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Hey there!

OMG, if you’re not a bears fan, I’m sorry but!

I don’t think they’re going to fire Lovie!

My friend Jeff at work, who always knows everything about sports like a psychic or something, explained it all to me, and he doesn’t think they’re going to fire him because of the stupid $11 million they’d have to pay him and really the team needs to spend that on a new offensive line, and Jeff was totally right about Rio getting the Olympics, so ya.

Boo.

I’m so mad at him.

Lovie. Not Jeff.

It’s going to be so hard to trust him next year after the mess he led our team into this year.

“The 2009 Bears! Hey, at least we beat the Vikings that one time.”

Moving on, I have no pants.

Well, I have like one pair of black pants, but really, even though I bought them like a month ago – they’re too big. And I can’t even wear heels with them to make them look less “too big” because of my stupid ankle.

I used to just wear dark jeans to work hoping nobody would notice, but now umm, I can’t, and it is too darn cold to wear a skirt, so I have to get more pants. Back in the day (July) I thought shopping was lame because nothing ever fit me right, but now, I fit in appropriate sizes and let me tell you – shopping is still really freaking hard.

Seriously.

I should be out getting pants right now. I’m not.

And really, I need to just suck it up and buy the pants that are are size too small, but kind of fit and trust that I’ll eventually lose another 8 pounds (as had been my track record for the last five months) and then I will have pants that fit for a long time, but I’m scared I’ll jinx myself and never lose the next 8 pounds.

Oh, and also, why does nobody sell jewelry boxes?

I really need one because I have a bunch of earrings now and woah, do those things randomly get lost a lot. But I cannot find one anywhere and now I’m  going to have to go to Claire’s and it might have to be neon pink.

Oh and guess what?! My friend Krista has been moving her WordPress.com blog over to her own domain and she got this photo widget thing and then she told ME about it. And now I can send pictures to my blog with a TEXT MESSAGE!! YAY! (Look to your right under ‘Can you see me now.’).

I predict that this will mean many fun times for us. Also, if you read me on RSS, you should click on my actual site and look at my pictures. 🙂

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What do the 2010 high school students say for their class chant? Te-en? Te-en? Te, te, te te te-en?

Remember when I wrote this last year?

Ya. Me neither.

But heck, I thought it was so fun that I’m doing it again. Plus it gives me a great opportunity to link to some of my favorite posts.

Without further ado, let’s have a look at 2009. (P.S. credit where credit’s due – I actually stole this from Mandy last year before stealing it from myself this year).

1. What did you do in 2009 that you’d never done before?

I’ve led a youth group meeting, lost 45 pounds (yes, it’s now 45), and did the Dare Devil Dive at Great America.

2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

Well I lost a bunch of weight, but that was more of an August Year’s resolution. I guess I’d like to lose 12 more pounds, and maybe stop waiting 6,ooo (fine, 10,000) miles between oil changes.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

No. Unless you count Dooce, who I feel close to and once met. AND! My friend Justin had a baby! YAY!

4. Did anyone close to you die?

My friend Dionate died, and a little 2 year old boy I wrote a story about also passed away as unexpectedly as someone with a tumor can.

5. What countries did you visit?

Ya. Passports are still like $70 right?

6. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?

Enough money to pay all my bills every month.

7. What dates from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

I got nothing.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

Again, going with the whole weight loss thing.

9. What was your biggest failure?

I went through a toll in August without paying because I didn’t have cash. I planned to pay it in 7 days, but then I forgot. Then, they sent me a fine for $62 dollars, but I have yet to have an extra $62 laying around. Then, I got another notice, which I didn’t even open because I suck at life, and I’m pretty sure I now owe the state of Illinois $212. For one toll.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

The gall bladder surgery was Jan. 8, so that technically falls in 2009. Also, I sprained my ankle craptastically. Both sucked, if you’re wondering.

11. What was the best thing you bought?

My laptop. I love it like a child. Kinda. For real.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?

My friend Diana got married, which resulted in one pretty fun party complete with a mariachi band.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?

I said “the Bears” last year, and alas, they somehow managed to be even WORSE this year.

14. Where did most of your money go?

Taco Bell, gas and new pants.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

Getting my ears pierced, meeting Dooce and Johnny Knox and seeing 153 on the doctor’s scale.

16. What song will always remind you of 2009?

“Tick Tock” by Kesha. And, “She’s Got Whatever It Is” by Zac Brown Band. (Thank me later for linking to those two).

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

a) happier or sadder? Happier

b) thinner or fatter? Thinner

c) richer or poorer? The same. Bank account was at $0 last year and it’s at $0 this year.

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?

I want to say blogging but that sounds like a lame to write on a blog. How about, sleep.

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?

Facebook.

20. How did you spend Christmas?

Started with an 11 p.m. Christmas Eve service complete with candlelight, then opening presents with my brothers, sister and mom, then Sandy and Glen’s with twice baked potatoes, then April’s family’s house with homemade chocolates.

21. Did you fall in love in 2009?

No. Is that sad?

22. What was your favorite TV program?

Mad Men and Desperate Housewives. Also, I love “Say Yes to the Dress” (but don’t tell anyone).

23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?

No.

24. What was the best book you read?

Candy Girl by Diablo Cody.

25. What was your greatest musical discovery?

Kesha and Zac Brown Band.

26. What did you want and get?

A laptop, to lose weight and to lead the high school youth group.

27. What did you want and not get?

Can I say a boyfriend, or would that make me seem pathetic?

28. What was your favorite film of this year?

I liked Avatar (in 3D) (Someday, when we watch movies in our dreams, I will look back and think how simplistic this movie was, won’t I?)

29. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

I turned 26. That’s almost late 20s. Lame. I went to Olive Garden with family. That’s the opposite of lame.

30. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

More money. (But don’t tell God. He tends to frown on that).

31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?

Whatever fits, which at first was just clothes from college, but then, as I lost more weight, was clothes from high school, and now, ya, it’s actually nothing, so I just wear too-big pants everyday.

32. What kept you sane?

God.

33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

I still love Johnny Depp.

34. What political issue stirred you the most?

Health Care reform. Two words. Public. Option.

35. Who do you miss?

All my friends I’ve made all over the freaking country who I mostly only see on Facebook.

36. Who was the best new person you met?

Wow, I cannot think of one person I met this year who has since become a friend. Note to self: Make more new friends.

37. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008.

Spraining your ankles sucks so don’t work out if you’re too tired to focus on how your feet land, putting vitamins in an old prescription bottle so you can store them in your purse totally helps them not leak their icky vitamin smell all over your keys and wallet, and, that sometimes people change for the better, but most of the time they don’t.

38. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.

“God is great, beer is good, and people are crazy.”

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