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what would my 18-year-old self do?

March 28, 2008 Crystal medium

Don’t get me wrong, Jesus’ opinion is important to me and all, but when it comes to decisions regarding my passion i typically turn to my younger, idealistic self and ask “what would 2002-crystal do.” (note: im not stupid, i pray about it too.)

right now, my big passion conundrum is that im thinking of leaving my passion behind. and while my 24-year-old self says “doooo it,” my 18-year-old self screams “wtf?!”

but im beginning to see my passion in a new light — an older, more realistic light. and i don’t think i like this view. i don’t think im all that passionate about it any more.

don’t get me wrong, im not going to leave it behind tomorrow or anything crazy. im just saying that for the first time since i discovered what a passion could be, i have no motivation to pursue this any more.

and im typically a fairly happy person, so im thinking i could be passionate about a lot of OTHER things.

i just have to get past those judgemental stares from my 18-year-old self and i’ll be good to go. (forward. without my ~~current~~ former passion).

sigh. life is hard.

randomly me

March 26, 2008 Crystal anti-meat, journalism, medium, wisconsin

I’ve been a writing a crapload of stuff for work lately and all those coherent articles have made it hard for me to post anything long. so instead of a regular post, tonight you’ll be getting a list of random thoughts. enjoy:

*I finally got my freaking Wisconsin Driver’s license. and it’s pink. so that almost makes up for the fact that my face is the size of a cannon ball in the mug shot.

*anyone who isn’t an organ donor is a stupidhead. and i wouldn’t want their organs anyway.

*i really am happy it’s finally freaking nice outside.

*i’m still a vegan and i’ve lost weight. like 10 pounds. (true story).

*i’m pretty excited that the woman at Festival Foods said she’d order the vegan mac’n cheese in a box if i told her the brand name.

*i wish i made more money. and i’m not talking gobs of cash, i just wish i made enough to pay ALL my bills EVERY month. (is that even a real thing for other people?)

*i kind of miss mozzarella.

*my couch is coming FRIDAY! and I plan to have people over next week for a viewing. it’s expected to be fun times. Also, I’m pretty happy that i won’t have to sit on the floor to put my shoes on anymore. I think that officially makes me a grown-up.

*as for dating: I’m not sure what i’m looking for, i just know that i haven’t found it yet.

*Johnny Depp is coming to oshkosh (where i live) like next week. I’m thinking he’ll want to marry me because I’m awesome.

*i wish i had a dresser.

*my kitchen light is out and i have NO idea how to replace it, so i cook in romantic lightening every night — even though im so very single.

*I’m pretty sure Wisconsin is going to go all the way in that bracket thingy i’m doing. “how sure?” you ask. sure enough to bet $5 george washington’s on it, that’s how sure.

*blogs are fun. every girl should own one.

i hate eating out because i have trust issues

March 24, 2008 Crystal anti-meat, medium

i went to one of my favorite restaurants today (beware, it’s a little white-trashy). (cough) Denny’s. (cough)

mainly it was because if i eat any more mexican food im going to cry and i know they have boca burgers there. and like a good little vegan i ordered one. without cheese. and requested that they not butter on anything. and i DID have coke, but other than that and the high fructose corn syrup in the ketchup i was pretty healthy.

but now i feel like crap. so im thinking the waitress didn’t take me seriously when i said “NO BUTTER.”

my stomach is doing flip-flops. the only possible explanation is that there WAS butter on the bun. or chesse. or eggs. im not sure. but i hate that restaurant now.

and ever since i’ve become a vegan i don’t want to eat out anywhere. at all. even if the restaurant was called Veganrestaurant i wouldn’t want to eat there because the chefs would probably put cheese on things and then exclaim “oh! cheese isn’t vegan?!” and then i would feel like crap 20 minutes after the meal.

and no. it’s not in my head. this is a real problem.

the only thing is, eating out is so d*mn social in this country.

so… i challenge you readers: tell me things i can do with people that don’t involve food, but do involve talking (see how i just disqualified movies) and getting out of the house. please. my social life depends on it.